Naomi Campbell on drug addiction: Childhood trauma and grief pushed me towards vice
The British model Naomi Campbell revealed in new documentary 'The Super Models' that drug addiction in the nineties 'almost killed her'.
Campbell was then at the peak of her modeling career. She admitted she turned to cocaine to forget childhood trauma and come to terms with the death of an Italian designer and close friend Gianni Versace.
"One of the things I tried to hide was sadness. Addiction is like that. It's a dangerous thing, it really is. You think it will heal the wound, but it won't. It can cause a lot of fear and anxiety," said the legendary model.
“Gianni motivated me to go out and keep going when I didn't think I could. "When he died, my grief became too great," she added.
She struggled with addiction for five years, and in 1999 she collapsed during filming. Then, she says, she realized that she had to sign up for rehabilitation.
"It was one of the best things I could have done for myself at the time. It was scary to look in the mirror. You can't hide your feelings. I was killing myself. It was very painful," concluded Campbell.
Campbell claims that the main reason she started using substances was a childhood trauma. Namely, the famous model grew up without her father who abandoned her mother while she was pregnant.
"Many things come from my childhood, many questions... Let's say – when you don't know your father or you don't see your mother. It brings many different feelings. One of those feelings is anger. It is a manifestation of deeper problems. "I think it's based on insecurity, low self-esteem and loneliness," she explained.
By the way, The Super Models is a new documentary on Apple TV about the successful careers of models Naomi Campbell, Cindy Crawford, Linda Evangelista и Christy Turlington.